The Valatine's day post

It was on d Valentine's day and i had a very interesting patient

very special couple in fact

21 years age differents...

Husband 25。Wife47

Assumptions and guessing went wild in d clinic.

But I really think and hope true love bring them together

like others say

"Age Don't Matter for love..."

believe? Do U?

久违了，星巴克

幸福不用长命百岁，
不是要腰藏万贯，
也不一定要青春永存。
幸福是当你每个生活里的小愿望都达成。
想吃的时候有得吃，
想爱的时候有个人来爱你 <3

随“键盘”

在阔别文字的逾百个日子
总处在心动而没有行动的状态下
有好多好多想永远留念的时刻
却始终没有一一细诉

也许算件好事吧！
在平凡的日子里
任由海马区域取舍
随机地编制将来的回忆
就像倒洒的颜色燃料，

在没有画家的精心设计也可以是件精品。

我喜欢现在这样

依在床上再自己的部落涂鸦

窗外的月亮不圆但很明

人生也许就是这样

没有完美，但为现在努力和开心

就算你是在睡觉也拼命发个美梦

那便是个耀眼的生命 :)

Happy Birthday Irene

Happy Birthday to Irene,
Happy Birthday to my BFF,
Happy Birthdah to the another owner of this blog,
Happy 21st Birthday to my dear !!!

Thankyou for being my only close christian friend in high school,
Thankyou for the things you have done for me,
Thankyou for sharing your happy moments and sadness with me,
Thankyou for standing by my side whenever i am weak,
And much much more....

Most importantly,
Thanks lord for putting you in my life.

P/s: I curi the pic frm you FB...Seriourly we need to have some pic 2gth someday. xoxo

Too much to say, too little time

Have you ever feel the same way?
Wanting to record every minute of your time,
cause you feel so special and nothing really matters anymore?
Cause u want to record how u feel at that very moment
so that when time passes by, u can still recall everything.

As long as you are happy,
life goes on with beauty within it.
I've learned that:
many things happen according to God's timing
and I always believe that there's a reason behind every moment
many times, you would not understand at that very moment
but you will when the time is right.
Keep trusting in the Lord!
Keep honouring Him and you will see his grace coming through for you.

It's time to step up this year.
Stop looking backwards.
It's a brand new year!
[Even though I'm a  little late]

未满二十一的想法

今天我房的两位小姐一个接一个病倒了
只好呆在家，吃我煲的粥
我跟Kellie坐在客厅，边吃边聊
聊着聊着，忽然我说"如果有一天，我嫁了人或搬家，没有你们和好朋友在身边，怎办?"
"这世上有一个东西叫电话啦"她说着便走进房
"可是不一样叻"
"Aiyar....说不定到时有Teleport liao lor"
"也对hor...." 我自言自语地微笑
虽然现在想起来觉得那答案很扯，
当时的我竟然对这样的答案非常满意（= =)

对未来没有把握的事，总是期待着美好 ^^

你们是我习惯新的依赖，我还是那重感情天枰女孩

The Game...

Haha... this are comments i collected from my friends...xp And i am here to reply them, not all of them will read this but then just in case you read it...hehe ...Really appreciate you guys spending time to do that
Just  a few only not too many of my friends are playing this game... feel free to comment here too if you feel like ‎xp

888:i saw u in the clinic very often when v were young.kept wondering who is this?till v met in high school,waited infront of ur hse for the bus everyday,ate lunch tgt every monday,cycled when v were free.i know, v love to swing in the garden.talk about everything anything.there is a connection btw us,cant understand how u understand me dat well!


Hey gul,people go clinic to see doctor not to observe others lar... Seriously we have lots of great time since we knew each other.Sticking like glue every chance we had, sharing everything together.Haha... i also duno y i can understand you so well, it's just natural.And i really thank God that i have you in my life...Being my only close christian friend since i was small,thanks for being my side all the time especially all the hard times...When i feel that i am all alone and seem like no one trust me, i know deep down i still have you and God.You helped me to stand firm and make the right choices, ignoring what other think and judge me...xp
BFF forever  ^^  Well, for the no i just randomly pick, 888 look nice and u suit all the nice stuff ! xoxo

Ms 013, long time no see...you are the 1st ppl who sit beside me during  the secondary school as we knew each other when form 1. You are a smart girl, white, pretty, kind and blah blah blah....looks like did not have any connection after form 1 as we never be the classmate again...haha...keep in touch and i am glad to know you, my friend..^^


Mr.Y,yar...thanks to the teacher's arrangement.We turn out to have some memorable time with the girls behind.Haha..and i still remeber you lost the way on the first day xp. Erm... i don't think i am smart, white nor pretty lor...there are millions of girls a head of me lor.
013, is the age we met and know each other. xp  should keep in touch always

‎158 : Hmm... 1st of all, happy new year (2011)... I noe this girl from my dear housemate... Mix a lots with BDS sabah gang... Got a sweet smile with the dimples at both side of cheeks... According to my housemate, she can be consider as someone who has no bad intention... As what I noe, still single, but dunno she is available or not... Gotta know her more in near future... wee...


Yup i am glued to Sabahan or more accurately east Malaysia ppl.yar.. thanks to your roomate we knew each other, and really appreciate your support as my best customer during the Lantern food fair..xp By the way i don't have dimples lor...Erm regarding status, haha...my status ar... yar single and avaliable but din't your roomate told you i will only consider those who are christian lor ....I am sure v can be great friends xp
I know you in Aimst, so 158.. is my last 3 no in my Aimst id.

‎2008: You've becomed prettier from when I knew you. Full of stories and a very cheerful character. and darling, i love your shoes!!!! i used to have so much fun in class with you and the rest. sitting behind, talking and doing homework were highlights of my day. i'm glad i knew you at one phase of my life eventho we differ in course now. :)

hey miss... we really had lots of wonderful moment together. Thanks for being such caring and helpfu throughout my foudation year.We had so much fun and because of you guys I am now more out going then i used to be.You too become more n more lovely nowadays.So greatful that i have you, is ok that we are not in the same course, you will always be the same in my heart. 2oo8, the year we get wild have fun and grow up.
‎042, haha, my neighborhood fren, used to like seeing her wit specs, cz witout it, it will be...
hahha~haven seen her for quite some time liao, for she is owaz out of tbi, lost in her own world of studies, haha~( travel), waiting the day where all our neighborhood fren aare bek and we could gather up and talk rubbish~

wao... still talking on the specs thing, haha now i did wear contacts ald. Yar... We are the tbi( Taman bukit indah gang) just love the ppl here.This is one of the main reason i don't wish to move out from here, nice enviroment nice ppl.Really miss those time me spend together. We must have a gathering perhaps during CNY then...No 42, my house add no xp

‎777: Haha gonna sing a song for you, COME BACK TO ME baby! And horr.. don't always ask me about my relationship status laah. As you seen, i've engaged to WanHong marrr. I missed the time when we celebrated X'mas together. I accidently got a winnie the pooh toy as my present HAHAHAHAHA! Heeee CNY is coming soon! Yayyy aunty mama i want a BIGGGG angpauuu!! =P

Oh dear.... I am soo soo sorry lar...Every time just can't make it bz of studies. Thanks for you n all the sisters gang for being so understanding all the time (last time due to church and my dad).You know i just love you girls, having you by my side all the time and and i kind of like our hang out style.Just stuck in one of our house sitting on the floor non stop undating. Simply easy and sweet.Hope we can remain this super wonderful friendship till we are working and have kid. I am pretty exciting since all of us are not in the same field at all.About the relationship status, bz we really do care about you mar.

Ms 106，我是从团契认识你的。你是那三位千金姐妹中比较属于中等的一位姐妹，不冷也不热。我觉得你是一位很有责任感的人，把每件事物都处理到很好。虽然有时你在人际关系处理得有些不好，但是船到桥头自然直，每件事情到最后都变好了，这是上帝给你的福分吧。祝你学业有成和爱主更深吧。(^^,)

感谢你的心细，被你看穿了我的脆弱和曾经面对的困难。不过就像我们学习到的，难处不一定是坏事，它让我们依靠上帝，建立对上帝的信心。从你身上，我看见坚韧不拔的毅力，善解人意的善良。愿我们一同在主里经历与成长。

It is time

saw the birthday card i made for u

it has been months since i should have gave it to you

suddenly, i had this question

what does it really mean by best friends?

are they friends who understand each other?

friends who are always there for each other?

friends who always think of you

don't matter what situation they are in?

happy, sad, frustrated, angry, excited, stressed, disappointed, lonely, embarrassed?

we have come a long way

so many things once blocked us from seeing the beauty in each other

it is time

time to say that i really seriously forgive you

im not talking about a short term forgiveness

but a total forgiveness

i do not speak out of anger, hurt, hatred and jealousy

but with all my heart's sincerity.

even though we are now far apart

even though we did not get to enter the same university

just know that I will be waiting here when you need someone

I wish you all the best in everything

love,

irene

给我的威廉王子

致：亲爱的威廉王子

就忽然有这念头，想给你写封信。还记得那一夜，我们一家躺床上，为你取名字的夜晚。想了很多，然后妈说:叫威廉吧，和威廉王子一样。是啊，在我们心里你是王子，永远都是。

今年我二十，你十二。纵使八年的鸿沟隔在我俩之间，而我们总是能够以自己的方式来表达我们的爱，也许那是一种本能吧。每次回家你就会扛着你所有宝贝浩浩荡荡走进我的房间。然后抱着你的吉他，炫耀你的进度。然后你开始表演你最新学会的魔术，忙上忙下找适合的道具。还有那些有时真的很没脑的冷笑话，弄到我哭笑不得。一直都是这样，你会找各样的借口赖在我的房间崔了几次都不肯回房睡。我嘴上总会埋怨，但心里难免但心，有一天你会否再也不想呆在这里，甚至不让我进入你的心房。

一直以来我都希望有个哥哥，那男孩呢，就要有姐姐。虽然有时凶巴巴，可还不是拜你所赐叻。。。害我现在老是唠唠叨叨的，不过那也是为你好啊！身为家里的长女，很多时候东西都要自己慢慢摸索，很多时候甚至爸妈也帮不上忙，毕竟离他们还真的有一段时间了。没有习惯性的依赖，很多时候要自己闯，经历，跌倒，学习强悍和面对。不过你心情在谷底时，我可以当你的聆听者，不用什么事都得自己撑着，我知道爸爸妈妈总为小事担忧，所以我会替你分担，当你的垃圾桶。

长大的感觉可谓百感交加，不过要记得无论发生任何事都不要离开教会，对上帝绝望。哪怕是感情亮红灯，学业逊色，或人际关系充满了争执时。我们一直都知道万事都有祂的美意，但要做到的是-坚定地相信。不要对上帝失望，这是我们的原则，要守住它。悄悄地告诉你吧，女孩喜欢有原则的男孩。

你这小家伙天资聪明，学习方面，不比像我们那样拚命，也始终不能适应像我们一样，花几个小时专注读书。训了你几百次，结果还是一样。唯有接受你自己的方式，只要你成绩不赖就好了。如果有一天你跌倒了，不要放弃，因为不是你的能力有限，你只是习惯性没有尽全力而已。所以爬起来，深呼吸，尽力再试一次。信我，我知道你可以的。

告诉你一个秘密吧，其实我并没有你想象中的那么强，每次你问我的歌，我都懂叫什么名。其实是我知道你喜欢，所以平时会特地去看有什么新歌，或是叫朋友介绍。还有像相机，电脑之类的很多时候，你是我花时间在它们身上的动力。因为我喜欢和你一起竞争，一起研究,还有厉害过你时那小小的骄傲xp

明天就是崭新的一年，对我俩都是新的旅程杯。踏入中学，希望你能好好享受每个日子。无论是甜酸苦辣，后来都会成为美丽的回忆。愿我们能更像基督，为主发光作盐。巴不得你现在就读懂这些，却不舍你那么快就离开那再也回不去的少年。这信，暂时就有我保管吧！

爱你，
大姐笔

生病

哇啦。。。太久没有生病
一病就超辛苦>.<
不过也好，提醒我们自己健康的时候
就要好好爱自己，不要无病呻吟
随便心情不好
S.M.I.L.E

我有个怪毛病，
听到有人，把鼻涕倒吸回喉咙，
我就觉得超恶心，全身起鸡皮疙瘩
中四那年，又个朋友坐在我前面
遍遍她就不能顶，人家把鼻涕崔出来
然后每次我们旁边的朋友伤风，
就很可怜，因为崔出来就会被她骂
倒吸，就被我骂。。。进退两难。。。哈！

Time for a change

Found myself wanting to blog again.
well, definitely, i feel very emo now.
now, 20, i find myself often worrying about so many things
if only i am a kid.
but the Lord taught us to be thankful.

Even now, i feel like i haven't mastered anything.
i learned piano when i was young,
sang when i was 3,
dreamed of being a scientist when i was 9,
picked up guitar when i was a teen,
learned cooking in my high school days,
found my interest in art when i was making birthday cards,
realised my passion for kids while working in a kindergarten.
But now, i noticed that i am not good at anything.
i feel useless.
this feeling of self-pity and dissatisfaction hits me deeply.
many friends have their own field of talent.
some sings till it touches your heart,
some plays musical instruments so well,
while others take beautiful pictures of people.
i can't help but searching my purpose in this life.
i keep asking God what i am destined for.
even though i haven't find any,
but i know that since the day He saved my life,
i was born for a purpose.
while in the surgery room,
He could have brought me home.
but he did not.
He showed me His grace and mercy,
determined to make me stay on earth,
there is definitely a reason for it.
nothing happens accidentally.

My Prayer:
I pray that i may find my purpose soon.
Lord break my heart from what breaks Your's
and
As I live my life for You,
may I be a blessing to others.

感动

记得我们上金马伦时，一路上播着小时候的民谣。
“红蜻蜓”，“祝你一路顺风”，“鲁冰花”。。。
最令我印象深刻的是“真心英雄”，尤其是这一句“平凡的人给我最多感动”
从表面看，平凡好像不可能带来涟漪
但细想，平凡的人所带来的感动却是久久挥之不去

考试时，我老是会往Clarise block 的study room跑
一坐就会坐到差不多两点，收拾回家时已经很压力plus累
但见到守夜的warden，总会让我心情好起来
她是个算中年的印度妇人，一定会亲切地跟你说晚安
然后你微笑的说再见。抬头一望，月亮圆圆的…
So end of the day, you are exhausted but still you are happy^^

在教堂，有很多很多的会友总是很疼我们
家福uncle和他太太，会预备很多美食给我们，偶尔还有delivery service ^^
校长会处处替我们着想，替我们说话
还有Bro Teh，吴斯亮 uncle，吴吉才uncle。。。等等
其实他们也有自己生活的难题，可以不用那么辛苦来关心我们
但是他们却让我们感觉到爱<3>。

还有好心的士司机，
老是在我们需要时，帮助我们 ；新年时，送我们饼干吃
就算很绕路，还是会送我们到想去的地方
不想吃学校食物时，他会帮我们打包，然后硬不要收我们的油钱
出去逛街，他会免费带我们去吃好吃的。

所以其实可以不必想尽办法去吸引别人的目光，
因为就算你很平凡，也会有人看见你身上的亮光。。

一个敬拜赞美的团队，可能有最强的领唱，最好的钢琴手和鼓手
但感动我的却是，在一个小教堂，五音不全的领唱，在尽全力把最好的献给上帝

也许诗班的主音和配音配搭的天衣无缝
却敌不过崇拜时，坐在我后面不识字的老奶奶，跟着旋律低吟来得动听

平凡其实很动人。。。

上帝没有一刻停止工作

因为上帝没有一刻停止工作，
所以我们幼小的心灵，仍有能力去爱人，
哪怕是我们觉得不可爱的人。。。

因为上帝没有一刻停止工作，
再黑的夜，也会有星光闪闪，
太阳明日依然会升起，照耀大地。。。

因为上帝没有一刻停止工作，
所以虽然无花果树不发旺，
葡萄树不结果，橄榄树也不效力，
然而我要因耶和华欢喜，因救我的神喜乐。。。

万事皆有上帝的旨意和时间，
所以不论发生任何事，
都还有微笑的理由
因为上帝没有一刻停止工作 ^^

蓝天和阴天

我很爱蓝天和那白白的云，
心情就因为这样变得超好的，
但有时我也喜欢阴天，
凉凉的又不用撑伞，挺好的...Xp

小时候的我，blur...blur又好笑
前几次听“全新的你”时，
一直纳闷。。。
心情像阴天有什么不好了？
很凉爽啊；而且雨天也不会很惨啊？
为什么这歌词怪怪的。。。
后来渐渐长大，才明白歌词的比喻

现在回想起来，曾经的童真，的确有它的价值
有阴天，才能显出好天气的可贵，
乌云所带来的雨水，又何尝不是一种祝福 ^^

在生命里的雨天，
有时好像没人了解你的处境，
有时有点茫然，不知向谁寻找支撑的力量
但我们心里清楚"耶稣能够 体会你的心情"

所以笑一笑。。没什么过不了的=）
因为喜乐的心，乃是良药。。。加油！！！
“发现自己真的撑不下时，是发现上帝大能的最佳时机”

Give thanks with a grateful heart

I am jumping over the moon and guess you know why....
(personally i prefer stars rather than moon...hehe)
Really thanks Lord for holding me through over all these ^^
p/s: vermisse dich sehr xp

草莓的故事

生活中的小故事将会是未来美丽的回忆。。。
所以想把我和草莓之缘记下 xp

也许是女孩的本性，
很小很小我就爱上了草莓，
那时我体质不好，而且草莓也不便宜
从来就没吃过。。。
但不懂为什么，就是打从心底喜欢
总是幻想着草莓是甜甜香香的

一直到后来，有机会上金马伦
才第一次吃到草莓
咬下去时，竟然是眯着眼
哈哈。。。才发现草莓有点酸酸的
之后几次上山再吃，
然后从节目里听到，
大家都说草莓酸酸的。。。
笨笨的我就以为草莓呢，
是甜中带酸的水果---->很滴汗吧(=.=)

就有着这样的想法
一直到去年的夏天在欧洲
吃草莓时，才惊觉
天啊。。。原来草莓是很甜的
一点都不带酸！！！
就像我曾经幻想的味道一样
Love it!!!
结果超级高兴。。。吃了一大堆 =）

就这样，草莓在我心里
从甜变酸，然后再变回甜 ^^

学习，是生命的过程

八月了
大学一年级就这样过了，
但能不能上二年级还是个未知，
要做到不担心交托于主，可不容易
只能说尽量而已，
但说真的，学习了很多功课
人生里总是有挫折，有问题，有难关
既然遇到了，就要勇于面对了
让自己直立不到，不是长远的办法
因为总有天你会遇到不在你掌控范围里的事
所以跌倒了，就爬起来
也许真的到了谷低，别忘了有主伴我同行
如果说没有伤痛，那是不可能的
但那确实是个经历上帝同在的机会。。
有一天，你会发现一切神都有祂的美意在其中
感恩，为着成长，为着学习面对，为着变坚强 =）
小敏语录“对上帝的信心不是在于事情的成败，乃是坚信祂拥有最完美的安排”
谁是小敏啊？
嘻嘻。。。还是我，以前有个好友是这样叫我的。。xp

The Brevity Of Life

去年我们刚开课前后，她开始出现是妈咪的探访名单
她叫佩柔，和我们一样二十岁，癌症病人
二十岁，
那对爱情景憧，对前途盼望的年龄。。。

在考试期间，很累的时候
她，是我激励的源头
我总是想
是啊，大家都很辛苦
大家一样都在等，在撑着
但，前头迎着我们的是蓝天，
不管我们这里的雨有多大
而向她招手的，却。。。
所以我们一定要尽最大的努力

我妹在考完SPM后也加入探望的行列
一直以来，她的故事我都是听说的
听妈咪说，她的家境不是很好
和她传福音有时不容易
佩柔小时候也是卫理幼儿园
我们以前可能见过
佩柔讲她对对我有些印象
听妹妹说，她的心情不好
和她讲了一整天的话都没反应
她的情况恶化要代，然后又好转
她说想见我，看我们两个有几像

我也一样，很想见她
虽然假期时和妈咪去探访是列事
但很少会期待。。。

前天，妈咪他们过来
妹妹刚好想起就问起
妈咪讲了四个字
。。。回天家了。。。
是在我考final，我妹考quiz的那礼拜
所以她没告诉我们

对于癌症的病人的离开，
我们很少会意外，像是会发生的一天
当我们说"我要死了"
和她们说"我要死了"
还真的有些讽刺

离开也许对她来说是个解脱，庆幸她会在父那里
"You can’t control the length of your life, but you can control its depth."
虽然她的生命是很短暂，却很有深度。。。

Limited time!

gosh,i wish i hv more time!
made up my mind to go to monash.
and oh!
i got band 7.5 for ielts
its not like very amazingly good
but it was unexpected.
thx 4 dat miracle!muah!

first,monash...
not big but good enuf,i guess??
good apartment though.
i saw d bedroom on9,looks comfy=)
i thk im running out of time to pack,buy and shift
lots to bring over there
and the cost of living is soo high..

many thgs to leave behind too..
its like starting a whole new life,
v new friends,new classmate,new school v new rule
but i get some freedom too!haha!

felicie**
i'm waiting for u to come back=)
but for now all d best,God bless!!

眨眼间

眨眼间，finals快来了
这个学期还真的很充实的
比起之前这学期少出街了
除了Alice 还有一部突然跑去看的香港片，
其他戏都没机会看，
至于吃嘛。。。就真得超级多，
吃了火锅，McD，日本餐，还有Taoo00 ^^
不过最幸福的是和宝贝们出去吃家常饭

对了，妹妹也过来了
不过我们没有一起住，因为我要她拥有自己的Rebecca 和Kellie。。。
有她在日子更温暖有趣。。。没事她就到我房睡
我在studyroom饿时，就去她家煲水泡茶
nice rite :)

虽然考试压力很大，但如果你细心体会你会发现主的爱，无所不在 !!!
大家加油！加油！加油！靠着那加给我力量的，我凡事都能做

Irene!!
I know I should sit down and study but just not feeling so well today
Can‘t wait to met you before you leave xoxo