It is time

saw the birthday card i made for u

it has been months since i should have gave it to you

suddenly, i had this question

what does it really mean by best friends?

are they friends who understand each other?

friends who are always there for each other?

friends who always think of you

don't matter what situation they are in?

happy, sad, frustrated, angry, excited, stressed, disappointed, lonely, embarrassed?

we have come a long way

so many things once blocked us from seeing the beauty in each other

it is time

time to say that i really seriously forgive you

im not talking about a short term forgiveness

but a total forgiveness

i do not speak out of anger, hurt, hatred and jealousy

but with all my heart's sincerity.

even though we are now far apart

even though we did not get to enter the same university

just know that I will be waiting here when you need someone

I wish you all the best in everything

love,

irene

Time for a change

Found myself wanting to blog again.
well, definitely, i feel very emo now.
now, 20, i find myself often worrying about so many things
if only i am a kid.
but the Lord taught us to be thankful.

Even now, i feel like i haven't mastered anything.
i learned piano when i was young,
sang when i was 3,
dreamed of being a scientist when i was 9,
picked up guitar when i was a teen,
learned cooking in my high school days,
found my interest in art when i was making birthday cards,
realised my passion for kids while working in a kindergarten.
But now, i noticed that i am not good at anything.
i feel useless.
this feeling of self-pity and dissatisfaction hits me deeply.
many friends have their own field of talent.
some sings till it touches your heart,
some plays musical instruments so well,
while others take beautiful pictures of people.
i can't help but searching my purpose in this life.
i keep asking God what i am destined for.
even though i haven't find any,
but i know that since the day He saved my life,
i was born for a purpose.
while in the surgery room,
He could have brought me home.
but he did not.
He showed me His grace and mercy,
determined to make me stay on earth,
there is definitely a reason for it.
nothing happens accidentally.

My Prayer:
I pray that i may find my purpose soon.
Lord break my heart from what breaks Your's
and
As I live my life for You,
may I be a blessing to others.

Limited time!

gosh,i wish i hv more time!
made up my mind to go to monash.
and oh!
i got band 7.5 for ielts
its not like very amazingly good
but it was unexpected.
thx 4 dat miracle!muah!

first,monash...
not big but good enuf,i guess??
good apartment though.
i saw d bedroom on9,looks comfy=)
i thk im running out of time to pack,buy and shift
lots to bring over there
and the cost of living is soo high..

many thgs to leave behind too..
its like starting a whole new life,
v new friends,new classmate,new school v new rule
but i get some freedom too!haha!

felicie**
i'm waiting for u to come back=)
but for now all d best,God bless!!

Untitled

well,
here it goes.
a 4 year old boy called me mummy.
it doesnt mean dat im old,
but dat he trusts me.
its amazing how i felt right after dat.
i hv heard dat women hopes to feel needed and wanted by others.
dats wat satifies us ladies.
no doubt i started to believe it.
partially..
hahaha

im back to where i started
remembered i once was in love with MONASH
at least dats one of the only international uni in malaysia
but i 4got abt my dreams when i entered F6
cz it cost a bomb
adding stress to my paretns
now,hving to sit 4 IELTS
i pray dat i will exceed the minimum requirements 4 monash
and score with flying colours
im simply saying dat i need a miracle.
hahaha
God bless me as Jabez had said
i hv no other choice other than wat i hv chosen in the first place

K.I.D.S

had just finish week3 at DRAGONFLY KINDERGARTEN
and i'm 70% sure dat i'm gonna cry when leaving..

many frens asked how 's it
i would say GREAT!I LOVE IT!
yes, i really do
those kids,
from all sorts of family,
some needing dicipline,
some love and care.
there's no definite way of teaching a child
cz for some of the kids,
all they need is attetion..
and its not a wrong thg to pay attention to them when the time is right
the way a teacher treats a child will either destroy or build his/her character

somehow,when u see them smilling and laughing,
u will smile too
its smthg indescribable

everynight
im looking forward for tomorrow to come
looking forward to see those kids again
never thought dat i would feel dat way..
the way they wrap their arms around ur legs,
hugging u and telling you their stories,
they will really touch ur heart
of course when they hv done somethg wrong 
v r responsible to tell them wat is right..
but when it comes to the end of the day,
u will feel great.

i hv already fall in love v them..
considering the way i got dat job,
its already a miracle..
now, having the chance to learn smthg from sm1 even younger,
its a double miracle =)
thx..

irene**

Shadowfeet by Hillsong

though this song was published quite long ago...

Walking,stumbling on these shadowfeet
toward home,a land that i've never seen
I am changing: less and less asleep
made of different stuff than when i began
and i have sensed it all along
fast approaching is the day

[CHORUS]
when the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standing
when the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you

Theres distraction buzzing in my head
saying in the shadows it's easier to stay
but I've heard rumours of true reality
whispers of a well-lit way

You make all things new

[CHORUS 2]
When the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standing
Every fear and accusation under my feet
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you

Thanks

"dad:v wana send u some money
bro:nvm la i still hv enuf cash
dad:its ok,v send to you jz in case u need extra cash"

parents are oways soo good
its the same v me
when it comes to food and cash
even daily needs
they will gv extra
so that v feel happy comfortable and not in lack of anythg

i'm thankful for my parents =)
thx mum and dad

We're single ladies=)

2 frens has turned single in one day
shocked
once again
i remembered another fren who told me not to get into a relationship
cz it doesnt work

at this moment
wondering
y do ppl fall in love?
get into a relationship?
to make one's world whole?
complete and perfect?
but i guess life is never perfect
tears come and go laugther too
cz if it would hurt wat for get into it?
but without getting hurt
one won get the chance to grow and understand human nature
neither the chance to change our way of seeing thgs

anyhow,whatever belongs to you
will come back to you
everythg happens for a reason
let evrythg come and go naturally
it's best when u follow ur heart...
cheers for being single and also in a relationship for those frens =)



irene**

I NEED HELP!

can anyone teach me how to study??
anyone..just anyone
i m so desperate
cz i'm not satisfied v my results

i went blank tonite when i was studying bio
what is dat book talking about??!!
modern genetics technology!
i don get it at all!
and this feeling sucks
cz i hv 2 months left!

2 MONTHS ONLY!!!!

HELLO IRENE
WHAT R U DOING V UR BOOK AND UR BRAIN??

i m capable....
i m brilliant....
i m blessed....
i m gifted....
i m strong....
i m speacial....

oh my~

culinary arts??
psychology??
bio medic??
landscaping??
buisiness??
what to choose??
soo many choices!

tell me how!!!!!!

juz b4 im going to end my stpm
my mum said that i can go 4 culinary arts!
u noe wat~
damn!
y dindt u tell me earlier
then i wouldnt hv to waste my precious time
studying such a tough course

if i join culinary arts after stpm
my 2 years of f6 will go to waste
all that i've learn will go down the drain
ohmy!my dream!
if only u hv made up ur mind!
i wouldnt b here now..
i will b finishing my course by now
and hv a career i love so extremely much

how abt psychology??
u said no too!
then now that one of my teachers say that its a good course
u agreed straight away!
mymy~all those that i love so much
u rejected those choices
and now u say its ok..
Ohmymymymymymy~
i donwana waste my 2 years~~TT
im not blaming u
its juz dat
pls don change ur mind soo frequently mama

i know u oways want me to join biotech
and dad wants me to go 4 accountancy
but i don realy hv a huge interest in such 'high-academic-demand' courses
i oways prefered somethg that uses our right brain 
not the left one
but i do like BIOLOGY

show me my future pls~cz in 3 months i will b finishing my stpm

irene--

past??

u know
letting go of hurts is soo hard
someway somehow
no matter how hard i try to forget everythg
i will recall the past 
when i c that person face to face
and its hard
cz i meet dat person everyday
[well..almost everyday]
and i remember the past well
as though it was yesterday
sometimes we tend to put so much of ourselves into dat person
but when the whole thg screws up
v end up with nothing but dust

i always tot letting go was easy
but now i c y
its soo hard
realy super duper hard
especially when u always meet that person
it comes and goes 
its a same old routine
AND IM SICK AND TIRED OF THAT!!

forget about it..
irene

Update n Refresh

Wow... have been spending hours on this
i know i am not a good bloger
this is part of the reason we are sharing the blog
Both of us are not so pro in blogging

It is just a way to keep in touch with all the besties
Telling each other how well we are
I dont really mind whether people are reading or not
Simple for close friends to visit while all of us
are so far away from each other.

Anyway quite like this new design ^^
Gambatea o everyone!!

By: Felicia

loosing without gaining

i lost somethings 
and i noe that im not able to gain it back
as i did usually

smthgs that arent yours will never b yours
if it's urs it will still come back to u

**rene

passerby

i remember
once
i wanted to help someone
to gain that satisfying feeling
and partly bcz of my sympathy
i learned that to gain a good relationship v someone
it does not depend on 1 person's decision
but both of them hv to gv up smthg
in turn to gain one's trust
time, sincerity, care...
many times,don feel hurt
neither do v curse those who hurt us
its part of our journey to gv up and gv in
ppl will learn when the time is right
everythg happens for a reason, dont they?=)
when someone fails u
turn to the other side of u
u will definitely find someone who really understands you


irene

Furthering my studies

i guess whenever it come to this topic
i still m not sure of wat specific course to take ==
uhuh
but i wana get out of msia!!!!
definitely !!!
for sure!
dad say HK will b ok too
since my uncle is there
missing my cute little cousins too

ohya!in a few days i will b seeing my bro's face everyday!!
cant wait 4 it..
v've been closer
like to chat v him
cz v understand each other
since v r raised up the same way..hav d same attitude
same thinking
dats wat siblings r for

life's great!

yea yea yea yea~

***irene

=)

whatever that has passed
let it go
whatever that is to come
hold on to it as if it will never happen
LiveLIFE to the fullest!!

Yuhoo~!
i feel FREE
i feel GREAT
i feel AWSOME

i've learned smthg
it's good sometimes
not to bother what other ppl thk abt u
just do whatever u want as long as u r happy abt it

all i hv to do now
is to sit down and focus on my maths
i hope that u will home soon my big Bro

everyone jia you!!! =)

******irene

Normal....

i really do miss u MISS M.Y.
i'm fine..haha
juz that sometimes i feel so bored
play v my hp till hang twice this afternun
[can u imagine how bored i m??]

i dono y
when it comes to night time
i oways feel scared to b lonely
and bored too..
since my bro isnt here
and its holidays

finish my drawings 4 the rat dissection experiment ytd night
i drew till 1 smthg
was so hapi cz finally i hav smthg to do
and i'm still in the drawing mode now 
cz im sooooo free
help me!

finally skul is reopening
can see my frens
chat and laugh   giggle   
i missssssss those times sooo much during dis 2 weeks
surely it also means dat i've gotta start studying
STUDY VERY HARDDDDDD!!!!!!

frens pls remind me that i wana go to NUS
singapore
to study LIFE SCIENCES

I DESPERATELY NEED LOTS OF MOTIVATION

thx...

beloved worship leader

Tml is the last day i will c my beloved woship leader
sis.Mairin. or mayb i don even get to c her =(
cz she's going to KL 4 training to b a guine
FOR 6 MONTHS!!!!
she's such a good person
a doctor
a sabahan
a goood worship leader with such a gifted and powerful voice
she and her husband [drummer] always train my singing and drumming
i like those times v oways hav after church 
JAMMING~
soo good to feel God's presence there
soo good to noe that no matter what happens
u still can come to church
and search that warmth and love that u need there
its a hiding place for me
everyone in chucrch is caring, loving
its a different place from the outside world

i won b seeing her for 6 months i guess
i remembered once
when she wasnt there when i was leading
without her backing me up
i tried my very best
but suddenly she was in time to join d worship session
[came back from sabah]
i heard her voice and i opened my eyes and saw her
i felt a relief in me

God bless u my beloved sis mairin
all the best too
hope to c u soon [mayb u r already on ur way to KL]

**sob

~irene

Ops ><

i burst out in tears on thurs
partly because of  stress
partly because of my stupidity
i cant stand it any longer
so i cried
sooo scared that my eyes will bengkak the nex day
feel soo stupid

AT LEAST I KNOW THAT FOR NOW,
ITS OVER FOR ME, FOR REAL

surely time is needed..hahaha

soo hapi cz i m joining the singing competition in my school

waited till the last year

lol

joining duet

v my old old old frenn

yuheng =)
knew him for 10 years ad
his bday is on 5th of may..hehehe
when i was f2
v and other frens always like to joke on the way back home
happy memories










summary : soooooooo HAPPY!!

irene

addition to Birthdayy post

my guls
jenny and wanying dated me today to celebrate my birthday

i went to juru
somewhere near my hse
cz my maths teacher wana treat me 4 my birthday
i went v cs 
ate laksa,rojak and cucuk udang
wat a tasty lunch!
plus i don hv to pay!
hahahahaXD
at 3.30pm
i reached skul
cs was my driver
he volunteered lol..
i drove straight away to wanying's hse
they cooked sphagetti for me!
it was sooo tasty!
yum yum!thx alot
v ate a cake too!
its wass good too =)
then v played v the tool used for perming hair
wanying has 1
they tried it on my hair
to straighten my curly hair haha
when v kept everythg
they took out a bag of presents for me
v a birthday card made by chunhooi
presentss from wanying winson jenny and chunhooi
such a surprise!
unbelivable!!
i opened the presents 1 by 1
and they took photos of me too
sooooooo hapi!
then v chit chated 4 a while and i went home 

oh my guls!
i did not expect much from u all
it was a surprised!
thx alotttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt
love u all muahhhhhhhhhssssssssssssssssssssssss
memorable!X)

**irene