Time for a change

Found myself wanting to blog again.
well, definitely, i feel very emo now.
now, 20, i find myself often worrying about so many things
if only i am a kid.
but the Lord taught us to be thankful.

Even now, i feel like i haven't mastered anything.
i learned piano when i was young,
sang when i was 3,
dreamed of being a scientist when i was 9,
picked up guitar when i was a teen,
learned cooking in my high school days,
found my interest in art when i was making birthday cards,
realised my passion for kids while working in a kindergarten.
But now, i noticed that i am not good at anything.
i feel useless.
this feeling of self-pity and dissatisfaction hits me deeply.
many friends have their own field of talent.
some sings till it touches your heart,
some plays musical instruments so well,
while others take beautiful pictures of people.
i can't help but searching my purpose in this life.
i keep asking God what i am destined for.
even though i haven't find any,
but i know that since the day He saved my life,
i was born for a purpose.
while in the surgery room,
He could have brought me home.
but he did not.
He showed me His grace and mercy,
determined to make me stay on earth,
there is definitely a reason for it.
nothing happens accidentally.

My Prayer:
I pray that i may find my purpose soon.
Lord break my heart from what breaks Your's
and
As I live my life for You,
may I be a blessing to others.